And now he is gone. Wiggum passed away last night around 3:45am. The clinic called us and told us that his little heart stopped beating and it was done.
I sobbed, and sobbed. I know it's a cat, and I almost feel foolish, but honestly I loved that animal. Loved him. And I feel loss.
It came so unexpected. When we returned from Denver on Sunday I did not notice anything unusual, and I certainly would never have guessed that I would be writing this post on Thursday.
I feel drained, exhausted and like crawling back to bed. But it's a cat. Life doesn't stop for the death of a pet.
Am I crazy? Is this normal?
I miss you Wiggum. I wish that I knew this was coming so I could have held you in my arms more this past week, so that I could feel your soft body and know that you felt me. That last night, you weren't really there. Your eyes were vacant and you did not purr when you lied beside me. That wasn't you. I didn't get to say goodbye to you. My kitty.
Goodbye.
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Rachel you did get to comfort him even though his eyes were vacant he was next to you and felt your presence.
ReplyDeleteOh I am so so very sorry to hear about your cat. No way you are not crazy at all...what you are is loving and caring...and your wiggums was really blessed to have someone like you to care for him. we still miss and dare I sayit sometimes cry for our doggy who has been gone for about a year and a half now.
ReplyDeleteI know I don't know you but I want you to know that I totally understand that grief...it truly is like losing a "human" member of the family also. Hugest of hugs to you. Juanita
Ugh, you are so not crazy. I'm really sorry about Wiggum. I feel the same way about our dog. He's our first baby. If you haven't read "In Dog We Trust" on my site, you might want to check it out (sorry -- really not trying to pimp out my blog, just thinking it may help a little. Make you feel not so nuts). And don't feel badly about writing more about him. Have you seen how I go on and on about my mom? I mean, I know he's a cat, but we all understand. And it is YOUR frickin' blog.
ReplyDeleteoh, how we can love our animals. we (all four) of us love our kitties something crazy. and they love us back....even at our worst. your kitty was a beauty and well loved. he was more than a cat...he was family. (found you through partlysunny)
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