Monday, June 28, 2010

Monday Mind/Mama Heart

Clip clop, clip, clop, high heel shoes clacking on the pavement.

I am bracing myself against a stiff city wind as I head to the office.
Down Battery street, past the coffee shops and the hurried business folk chattering into cell phones.

My mind is back home. Back at the county fair, basking in the sun. Spinning around the memory of my sticky-sweet toddler loving on an ice cream cone.


Get your mind in Monday Rachel.
Think
You have interviews to do today.
Think
You need to find more candidates
Think.



I try to get myself back in that space, that worky place of organization and creativity but my mind drifts back.



To the pile of laundry that still needs to be done
To the bills that I need to remember to pay
To what the heck are we going to do on the 4th of July.



Get your mind back in Monday.
Think.
You have reports to create
Think
You have to remember to decline last week's candidates
Think




Funny Evan, climbing to the top of the Super Slide only to beg to be carried all the way back down.
Memorial Park - great place to host Zack's fifth birthday party. Need to remember to reserve a spot.
Forgot to tell the nanny to put sunscreen on the boys




Get your mind in Monday Rachel!



Clip clop, clip clop heels on pavement, the first light I have seen since morning.
Heading home in a hurry, marching toward the train. Running late.


I need to determine what is on the menu for tonight. No more pizza. Those boys are going to turn into giant pepperonis.
Think
I guess we can play outside, the weather is nice.
Think



I should have found more prospects today.
I still need a good VP candidate




Get your heart at home Rachel!
Think
Aren't you excited to see your boys?
Feel
You bought chicken at the market, you are suppose to make casserole, will it take too long?
Think


Did I remember to send an update to my boss?
Maybe I can log on for a few minutes once I get home to check.

Get your heart at home Rachel!
Think.
You need to fill out preschool paperwork for next year.
Think
You need to schedule a check up for Zachary
Think

Stop.

You need to love your boys.
You need to hug them
To play with them
To give them undivided attention.
Get your heart at home Rachel!

Sometimes my Monday Mind and Mama heart get all mixed up.

5 comments:

  1. This is exactly why I prefer to work at home, part time! Don't think I could handle the full time working Mama thing - it might drive me insane.

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  2. I have to second Hilary's comment. I have twelve kids and working outside the home never would have worked for me either. I have owned my own business for ten plus years, and even that steals time from my family. It is really hard to have to divide our time. I talked to an upper level executive mom who makes six figures yesterday, and her comment is that if she knew then what she knows now, she never would have started the corporate ladder climb. Her happiest days were those home with her family simply being a homemaker. It gave me a different insight.

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  3. Hi - just found you via MBC and am now following! http://isthereabathroomonthisship.blogspot.com/

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  4. My mind is forever racing back and forth over to do lists and more and I have just one child and stay home all day, so I cannot imagine how much more by way of to do lists you are constantly carrying with you.

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  5. Lovely post. I love the way you express this.
    Luna x

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